Moving On

I'm not one to forgive and forget - I hold grudges and it's a terrible personality flaw but it's hard to fix.  This guy at my work has ruined my whole work experience for me, and it's both 1) a fucking shame for me and 2) a fucking shame for my company.  I find it hard to be productive anymore because I don't like being here.  I dread coming in and have been leaving later and later, and when I'm here his booming voice just makes me want to punch someone in the face.

While I sit here in my new cubicle, alone, I get to hear him chatting it up with the people who I used to sit with, who I used to converse with regularly because all it required was turning around.  Now? I turn around and there's no one, I'm just sitting here by myself.

How is this fair?  I am very sensitive to other people's feelings about me and so being so totally left out all of the time is a really awful feeling for me and makes it hard for me to enjoy being here.  I'm tearing up as I write this because it really is so sad; I had a job I loved with people I loved working with and now, I can't get anything done and I can't even spend a day here without wanting to kill someone.  Always the same someone though...