Monday, June 30, 2014

On Sensitivity

In a recent talk with my new HR person, who rules by the way, she implored me to let go of my negative feelings towards my colleague who I got into a big fight with and lingering resentments towards my boss who I felt sacrificed my comfort when I believed I was in the right.  I have always had a hard time letting these things go because they affect me as such personal affronts: logically, I know my boss just didn’t feel like dealing with the other guy because he’s very (VERY) difficult, but I couldn’t help but feel that his way of dealing with this situation somehow belied his true feelings about me as either worthless or replaceable.  Similarly, I found it hard to just let go of the argument I had with my coworker because his lack of respect for me was so palpable in the moment that surely that must be how he felt about me all the time.

I have been trying to figure out how to be less sensitive so I can spend less time dwelling on stupid shit, but it’s proving to be very hard.  Part of me wonders if it’s self-involvement and narcissism that makes me feel like the actions people take (from the words they choose to the faces they make) are in some way about me or in reaction to me, if this is the result of some weird combination of ego and the total lack thereof.  It ruins my productivity in lots of areas, not limited to work but even when going out at night (“Why wouldn’t the bartender serve me?”) or trying to write things here (“Why did that girl unfollow me after that one post? Was it stupid?”) or even posting stupid things on Instagram (“Why don’t people like this? Am I ugly?”), etc.  It hinders progress constantly.

It could also be a direct result of depression.  The acute feelings of pain or self-consciousness that characterize sensitivity are felt with clinical depression over long periods of time.  While this sort of deep feeling is good in that it gives a lot of people intuition and the ability to really perceive their surroundings, it also makes decisions incredibly difficult because so many different outcomes need to be processed and prepared for.  It takes me forever to make any sort of decision simply because of my fear of making the wrong one, knowing that I won’t be able to stop beating myself up if I feel that I took the wrong path.  In fact, I’m still beating myself up for things I did many years ago, finding myself rehashing situations in my brain and thinking of all the ways I could have handled them better.  This constantly leads to bouts of low self-esteem, times where you will look in the mirror and feel hideous and read over every blog post you attempt to publish in disgust before deleting it all and giving up because everything you have to say is too dumb.

So maybe I cry a lot because I’m an egotist, or because I’m a baby about everything, or because I have some intangible chemical imbalance in my brain.  It doesn’t matter what the reason is because people who don’t experience this extreme sensitivity rarely understand how you feel.  They tell you to buck up and ask why you care so much what others think.  If it were so simple, I am sure most people would have simply stopped caring by now.   Unfortunately, it’s a process, and a difficult one at that because setbacks are both frequent and unavoidable.

I’ve been thinking about how my extreme sensitivity affected the way I handled the situation at work where I was being forced to work long hours and weekends while the clients I was working for sat around and did nothing.  Along with sensitivity, I think, comes the constant desire to please and hear praise for your work.  While the clients were heaping more and more work that fell outside the scope of the project on me, I was too afraid of them thinking I was lazy or inexperienced to say no when I should have.  It’s so easy to become a doormat when you’re handling all these conflicting feelings and spending way too much time analyzing the actions of others to figure out what they want you to be doing.  It’s important to get your work done, but maybe it’s even more important to put yourself first and not allow yourself to get into that position where you’re struggling so hard to make everyone happy that you’re totally miserable.

“I heard you had a little breakdown,” one of the employees there told me when I showed back up on Monday, having now worked a full two weeks straight.  I spent the next hour trying to figure out who saw me get upset and how and why and what I should be doing for damage control here.  Maybe instead I should have just laughed and moved on, accepting that his comment wasn’t meant to be critical, and just finished what I was there for and gotten the hell out.  It’s a decision that I’ll be dwelling on and hating myself for for quite some time to come.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Retail Therapy Needed

I am now going on my 9th straight day of working (yes, I worked Saturday and Sunday this weekend) and I think it's starting to catch up.

Major signs this is the case:

  • I am bidding on a thousand things on eBay
  • I am considering stopping to go shopping on my way home from work
  • I am thinking about buying something from J. Crew when it isn't even 30% off everything
I'm a big fan of retail therapy, so generally whenever I am super stressed it is reflected in my bank account.  There should be two packages arriving for me this week already, in fact.

It could be worse.  I remember the one time I was insanely stressed and was getting a new package from Sephora almost everyday, and my doorman commented to my mom about it and asked her what Sephora was.  She told him it was a fancy makeup store and he replied, "Well, there are worse vices she could have."  I try to think about that to keep things in perspective sometimes.

Wait, I just got an email about a sale at Barney's.  I have things to do, let me wrap this up.

dress: lafayette 148 || shoes: bcbgeneration tinas pump || bag: louis vuitton MM neverfull

Yesterday my HR lady went over my MBA proposal to my COO and CEO with me.  I just have to work on making it a little more formal and then I should be good to submit it, so wish me luck!

Monday, June 23, 2014

YSL Le Teint Touche Eclat: Two Months in, Still Loving it

Not too long ago, if you'll recall, I went on the hunt for a new foundation.  I first tried the Hourglass Immaculate Liquid-to-Powder Foundation and was underwhelmed by the texture and the finish.  On the recommendation of a friend, I next opted for Yves Saint Laurent's Touche Eclat, supposedly the foundation version of their groundbreaking Touche Eclat concealer/highlighter/everything-er.

Having recently become obsessed with the original Touche Eclat, I thought this had potential.  I looked for other opinions online and the general consensus was pretty good.  Sephora VIB Rouge discount card in hand, I excitedly picked up the YSL Touche Eclat Foundation in Beige 30 ($57.00), eager to see if it would live up to expectations.  I think I've had it long enough by now that I feel equipped to finally asses it.

According to YSL, this foundation is the first to contain the "magic light of Touche Eclat".  It is "infused in a weightless fluid" without any opaque fillers (to let your natural skin shine through!) and "targets shadowy areas and highlights the contours of the face".  It is supposed to give you buildable coverage and that no-makeup makeup look that we spend so much time and money to achieve, as well as illuminating your skin to give "dimensional radiance".  There are 16 shades available with three undertone options (Beige Rose for the pink-toned, Beige Dore for the yellow-toned, and plain Beige for the neutral-toned).

First off, the packaging.  A foundation that costs more than most should have packaging that reflects the expense and in many ways, this does.  The glass bottle is heavy and solid feeling, the cap stays put when you put it on (looking at you, Urban Decay Naked Skin), and it comes with a pump (unlike my previous favorite, NARS Sheer Glow, for which I had to buy a pump for $6 from Barney's - not a huge expense but certainly annoying).  My one complaint: the pump rarely, if ever, allows you to get out just a little bit at a time.  If you have a small area to touch up, you're stuck getting out way more than you need which is definitely a waste.  All around I think that the packaging lives up to expectations and exceeds lots of other brands although I have to be super wary of how hard I'm pressing the pump any time I try to get any out.

The "weightless fluid" claims are definitely accurate, as this makeup glides on super easily and blends like a dream.  The lack of opaque fillers gives you that natural "dimensional radiance" they promised, but I also found the coverage to be not very buildable, especially as compared to the exceptionally buildable coverage of Sheer Glow.  This is understandable since the whole point of this makeup is to ensure you don't look cake-y, but it should be noted for those who would buy this expecting to get serious coverage out of a few layers.  It also doesn't catch on dry patches which was a major pitfall for the Hourglass Immaculate.

The finish is radiant and illuminated without looking shiny or oily.  Part of what makes this makeup so blendable is that it takes a while to dry so it does look a little wet for the first few minutes, and I would be careful about putting any cream products on right on top of it, but this is nothing a little finishing powder (or patience) can't fix.  

By the end of the day I still need to blot but only occasionally need touch-ups around the chin area, a testament to the staying power of this makeup as most typically slides around on me.  

I really, really love this stuff.  The finish is gorgeous and natural, perfect for the summer, and it's such a breeze to apply.  I have been experimenting with applying with the Sephora Mineral Powder Brush ($24) and the Beauty Blender ($20) and have been especially pleased with the results for nighttime and photographs.  Beige 30 is a perfect match for me and it's a relief not having to reapply if I want to go out after work, wondering if my face looks splotchy and super made up.  I want to see more how it photographs and if it gives me that dreaded white cast that made Sheer Glow just not cut it for me, but I think this could be worth the extra expense.

Has anyone else tried this?  What have you thought?

Friday, June 20, 2014

Capitalism is a Failed Experiment: the Groupon Evidence

The whole idea of Groupon and Gilt City and their ilk is that businesses offer the same services to you, the savvy consumer who puts up with thrice daily emails, for less just because you happened to not mark emails from Groupon etc as "spam".

Unlike hunting through a factory outlet, fending off crazy people at a sample sale, or going out at midnight on Thanksgiving, the work required here is minimal - just commit ahead of time and click a button.  I used to think that the reason businesses opted to do this was the gift card theorem: offer a gift card to get the money now without actually losing any capital (in either time spent, services rendered, or goods) and then bet on the fact that the gift card holder will forget about it or lose it or never get around to using it.  That reminds me, I have a $200-something credit at Bloomingdale's from three years ago I should really try to find... Hmm...

But anyway, it's a smart move for companies, particularly if you're crunched for cash in the short run.  You get the money ahead of time and then when you're, ideally, more stable, you make good on the services.  Like a bond.  Or something, I don't know, I haven't gotten my MBA yet jeez.

More and more, I see that the offers available on these sites are from well known companies, companies that aren't just looking to get a little publicity or get their names out there.  Here, it seems the companies are saying they are aware their prices are vastly over inflated and so they can offer the same exact things for less money to you while the people eating next to you eat the same food for more money.

"Schmucks!" you might think.

But we're all the schmucks.  In the name of wanting to feel rich or luxurious we've allowed prices to soar unreasonably, to the point where businesses can tell us that they're ripping us off and we'll still go back for more.

The reason why people think capitalism works - in that it fosters competition in the marketplace so the service providers will offer the best possible options to compete for customers - is based on an inherently flawed assumption.  That assumption is that people want to do good by other people, i.e. not rip them off, and that they care more about competing with other businesses than colluding to raise prices.  This assumption has been proven wrong time and time again, particularly with the LIBOR scandal, and yet we still assume it to be true.

If the aim was to do good by your customers, these stupid coupons wouldn't exist because providers would be offering their services at the best prices they could.  Certainly that doesn't mean all things should be the same price as better products generally require better materials/ingredients, but that should be reflected by a linear increase in price rather than an exponential.

I guess the reason why people would opt to pay full price goes along with our desire to appear wealthy and as though we belong at all times.  Who wants to call up Per Se to make a reservation and have to preface that by telling them you have a Groupon for it, placing the big ugly printed voucher on the table when you sit, displayed for all to see so everyone knows you don't really belong there.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

I Spoke Too Soon (Watch Hunting, Part the Second)

I knew I was bound to change my mind, but perhaps not so soon.  Yesterday after work, upon realizing how absolutely brutal traffic was, I decided to stop in at a mall to wait some of it out.

I strolled into the Omega store because I had already looked at every available item in Saks.  I looked at a pink dial Ladymatic and hated it - it was so over the top pink and the wave motif was kind of cool but kind of obnoxious.  Then the sales assistant showed me her watch: the DeVille Prestige 33mm

(with or without diamond bezel)

Hello, gorgeous.  I think we have a new top contender in the mix here.

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Watch Hunting

Now that I've submitted my Stern application, naturally my mind has wandered to what present I will get myself IF I get in.  I very rarely buy big things or allow people to buy me big things because I always feel like I don't deserve them, but this time I think I will.  After all, what's a Stern MBA student without a sick watch?

I have a few Michael Kors watches that are fine and get the job done.  The Movado I got on my sixteenth birthday still gets some use, as does the one that belonged to my dad and was his prized possession.

But I want a real watch, a big girl watch.

I've been doing research into brands and movements and have been utterly confused.  Automatic or Mechanical Movements have more prestige, and yet they are less accurate and must be adjusted every month.  Quartz Crystal based movements are considered "cheap" and "mass-produced", but they are very accurate and lose mere seconds each year.  What's up with that?

I'm gonna try and break down what I've learned here and share with you the options I've been most seriously considering.

So first of all, mechanical (sometimes called manual) and automatic watches both use nearly identical movements, but a mechanical watch must be manually wound (about every 36 hours) to get the power it needs to keep time, while an automatic watch harnesses the energy produced by movement in order to automatically wind the watch.  This means that as long as you wear the watch at least every other day, it should be fine since the normal movements of your arm are enough to keep the rotor inside spinning, passing the energy on to the main spring for the winding.  There is something called a watch winder you can put an automatic watch on if you don't plan on wearing it regularly; I haven't looked into this because I am looking for an everyday type watch but I like to imagine that it's like putting your watch on a swing set.

  • Mechanical movements are more highly regarded by watch aficionados because there is a lot of engineering involved in the design and creating a movement takes lots of precision and care.  Some of the most expensive watches out there use handmade movements.
  • You only need to wind or wear it once a day so it's really not that inconvenient unless there is literally not a minute you can spare in your day.
  • You can impress people by talking to them about your in-housemade movement and some watches even use transparent backs so you can actually see it.
  • The second hand makes a smooth sweeping motion across the dial which is admittedly pretty cool looking.
  • If you take good care of it, since these watches are generally so well-built they can last for generations (not that you'll be around for them).
  • You have to remember to wind it, and I can barely even remember to bring my cell phone with me most days.
  • They're significantly more expensive than quartz watches.
  • In a lot of ways you're paying for the history rather than the efficiency.
  • They can gain or lose a few minutes per month so they need to be calibrated fairly frequently.

  • These watches are very efficient timekeepers are typically only lose or gain a few seconds a year.
  • A good deal less expensive than mechanical watches and certainly more choices in a variety of price ranges.
  • Suited for an everyday lifestyle where you're not planning on passing this thing that will probably be totally outdated within a generation when we figure out how to manipulate time down forever.
  • They don't require as much craftsmanship and care in making, if that's the kind of thing that matters to you.
  • They need their batteries replaced about every year and a half (as opposed to mechanical watches that need servicing every 5+ years)

So basically, there are lots of considerations for each, but what it really comes down to is what you want the watch for.  If you are going to be using this because you have an obsessive need to know the most accurate time as possible all seconds of the day, get a quartz.  If you are the kind of person who would never get an automatic transmission sports car because it defeats the purpose, even if it is much more suited to the highway driving you spend most of your time doing, get a mechanical.  If you care more about cost-benefit analysis than history and prestige, go for the quartz.

For me, right now anyway, I care mostly about price, quality, and look.

Quartz watches in general are cheaper but many revered watchmakers offer both mechanical and quartz options, so certainly "quartz" and "cheap" are not synonymous.

Anyway, I've been looking at two brands specifically, Rolex and Cartier.

Rolex Lady Datejust
Rolex Lady DateJust

The Rolex Lady DateJust looks almost exactly the same now as it did in 1955, and still retains the automatic movement.  While there aren't choices in styles, there are choices in dials and bracelets.  Markers and bezels can be diamond, bands can be two toned or single, metals can be platinum (out of the price range) or stainless steel, dials can be pale pink or champagne or silver.  One of the biggest choices is bracelets:

Oyster, Jubilee and Presidential are the ones I have encountered the most in my searching and I think I prefer Jubilee the most.  It's the most feminine to my eye, and the most interesting to spruce up an otherwise boring and plain watch.  I love the two-tone look but my most worn MK watch is two tone and someone already mistook that one for a Rolex so maybe I should go with a solid color.  I think silver looks the best on my skin tone.

You can find a nice, good condition pre-owned piece from a reputable seller in the $2000 range.

Cartier Pasha C WatchCartier Roadster Watch
Cartier Pasha C (left with pink dial) and Cartier Roadster (right)
photos via Gilt

The Cartier Pasha C is another gorgeous, simple watch.  Its clean lines are complimented by an unadorned face, and I love the option to get a pale pink dial to add a little color to my otherwise neutral wardrobe.  The Cartier Roadster, on the other hand, is a little more different.  The shape and Roman numerals make it stand out to me and I don't have any other non-circular watches, so it would be a great addition to my collection as a statement watch.  I can't see either of these looking dated in the years to come.  Both are available in automatic or quartz movements.

These can both be found in good pre-owned condition in the $2000 - $3000 dollar range, depending on the movement.

I've only been looking for a few days, but these are the three that have caught, and kept, my eye so far.  They are all quite expensive but, considering I wear a watch every day, I imagine it will be money well spent.  I am starting to branch out to Baume et Mercier and other brands in hopes of finding more that I like and can consider.

Does anyone have experience with higher end watches?  Was it worth the money (I'm loathe to call it an "investment" because let's be real, it's not)?  I will probably change my mind a thousand times between now and the time I can actually buy it, and I'm also probably get my hopes up a little too high for admission, but hey, it doesn't hurt to 

A Little Sweat Ain't Never Hurt Nobody

So it's the first day that we're hitting the 90 degree mark this season!  This means I have to start deciding between sweating my ass off on my way to my car and then being fine, or being fine and then shivering all day at work.  Tough decisions.

I listen mostly to rap music, so I switch back and forth between the two major New York rap stations in the morning.  For the past month, they have been playing the same four songs at least twice an hour:

  • Up Down by T-Pain
  • Loyal by some people that include Chris Brown and Lil' Wayne
  • Paranoid by Ty$
  • The Worst by Jhene Aiko (hope I spelled that right)
I don't like any of these songs so I've started listening to my own music during my morning drive (which is tough because I'm not one much for, ahem, curating) and discovered the best song to put you into a good mood on your way going somewhere you don't want to go.  Or at least to take you out of a bad mood.  It is Get Me Bodied by Beyonce and it never fails to make me feel better.  I highly recommend it!

Give it a shot next time you're struggling through the day.

shirt: vince leather sheer back top || pants: theory nabiki trousers || shoes: pour la victoire irina pumps || bag: balenciaga RH black city

I dressed for the weather outside but don't worry, I still brought a sweater because I know I'll need it.

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Wah Wah Rant Complain

Okay so because I'm generally over dramatic I'm sure I've said this before but I promise, those other times I didn't mean it because this has been, without a doubt,

I've been on site at a chemical plant that makes catalyst since last Monday.  Someone from our parent company was with me to show me how to do everything and I was supposed to be observing so that I can service the system if needed in the future.

Our first day, he assured me this was a two day job tops and said he was already looking into changing his Friday flight to Wednesday.  He seemed to really know his stuff which I appreciated.

Then, we went to do our first task.  He found a totally unrelated issue and sent us on a wild goose chase for the whole day trying to figure it out before discovering it wasn't really a major issue at all.  So that's one day down.

Tuesday morning he came in and said there was probably only one more day's worth of work.  We sat around and did nothing most of the day and I ended up having to stay until 7 PM because by the time they finally did start it was already the end of the day.

Upside: I was able to finally submit my NYU Stern application, realizing that the more I just stared at my essays, the more likely I was to hate them and want to start from scratch.  That's a plus because knowing me I might have put it off until the very last minute.

Now, this isn't to say this guy is solely at fault.  The people at this plant, for the most part, seemed to enjoy chatting much more than actually getting anything done.  Normally this is fine with me but they were in a serious time crunch here, and that meant that they were putting me (the observer, supposedly) into a serious time crunch as well.

I started wondering if maybe some of them didn't like their wives because they seemed to not even want to go home, almost like they'd rather stay late hours than just get shit done and go home on time.

The days dragged on in similarly unproductive fashion.  The engineers we needed to do our work were constantly in meetings updating their supervisor on the progress on the project (none) and what still needed to be done (everything).  It was such a waste of fucking time and reminded me how awesome my boss is in that he just lets us do our work without forcing us to stop and sit in a room for an hour and just chat about progress when we could be actually making it.

By Friday, there was discussion of coming in on Saturday.

Oh, hell no.

I tried my hardest to encourage everyone to hurry the fuck up.  They had given me a lot of things to do outside the scope of the project but rather than waste time arguing I just tried to finish them as quickly as possible.  We were doing tests on a number of transmitters, and for whatever reason the guy out in the field making sure valves were opening and closing came inside and sat down to chat after every. Single. One.  I kept saying "Okay, next one!" in an attempt to get him to stay outside and get things moving but no one else was having it.

Around noon, the guy who actually knew this stuff left to go home.  Suddenly, I went from observer to sole systems engineer and had to figure out a project I was mostly unfamiliar with, looking through logic to determine why things were coded the way they were.  It was miserable.

When he was gone, things seemed to go even slower than they had.  Little things went wrong that I tried to fix but couldn't figure out.  It was 4 PM and my planned beach weekend was rapidly becoming a weekend in a windowless control room.  I was trying to figure out an issue but it just wasn't working.  I asked if we could skip it for now and go back - sometimes things just need time to initialize and my brain needs time to defog before I can figure out what the problem may be.  To make matters worse, the operator guy was sitting there and laughing every time something went wrong because he knew I wanted to leave and I guess found it hilarious that I couldn't.

The guy who needed to go outside to check things straight up just ignored me.  I kept trying to troubleshoot the problem but just couldn't find anything anywhere.  I grew so frustrated by their total lack of caring about getting this done that I did the unthinkable.

I started to cry.

Being a crier is the worst - silent tears invariably stream out any time I am mildly upset or frustrated.  It doesn't mean I'm sad or being bratty, it's just a physical reaction I have.

I left the room to call my boss and ask him if he had any ideas on what the fuck I should do.  He apologized for me being left there alone and said that was never his intention.  I tried to pull myself together to go back into the control room.  Unfortunately, when I did, I just realized they had been sitting there doing nothing that whole time and I felt my eyes welling up again.

I didn't want anyone to see but I am sure one of the guys did.  He came and spoke to me and said not to worry and told me that "feature creep" is a common occurrence:

You go somewhere to do A, B, and C, and you choose your time frame based on that, but then once you're there they decide they was D, E, F, and G done as well, and suddenly your time estimate was way too short and you feel incredibly pressured to get everything done in the same period of time.

Realizing I was going to have to go back Saturday, I left around 5 to get to my shore house.  My week sucked but I wasn't going to let it ruin my Friday night.  I had a great time and left at 6:30 the next morning to go back and hopefully finish.  My boss met me there this time, thankfully, and when we were walking in, the guy who saw me crying gave me a very sincere and thorough apology for the way everything was going, and told me I should never let a customer make me feel stressed and pressured to do more than I explicitly needed to do (which was, let's remember, OBSERVE).  I was glad he did it in front of my boss so my boss could see that things really weren't going so hot down there but I still came in even though he was and could have easily done things on his own.

We finished around 3 PM on Saturday and I went home and didn't get up off the couch for the rest of the night.  Most days the previous week were 10-12 hour work days and I was just beyond exhausted.
I had to go back yesterday to finish more things and a worker came up to me and told me he heard I had a breakdown on Friday.  I doubt he was trying to be mean but it was pretty upsetting to me as I thought I had been able to keep it together in front of most people but apparently not.  It was a really awful work experience, one that I'm sure is not uncommon but I hope not to see again.

Oh, and I have to go back Friday.

My real issue here is that I'm too timid.  I'm young and a woman, and as such I feel uncomfortable trying to order people around and run the show, even though that's what I should have been doing.  Maybe with more experience my confidence will grow as well and I'll be able to do these things.

No outfits because I had to wear my flame retardant jump suit and steel toed boots all week and, of course, now I'm sick with a throat infection or something and feel like shit.

But forget about all of that, I now have TWO APPLICATIONS COMPLETED AND SUBMITTED.  Two more to go and I think I'm done for now.  Cross your fingers!

How was everyone else's week?  Hopefully less frustrating and embarrassing.

Friday, June 6, 2014

Making Progress

I have now officially started all of my applications and narrowed it down to 4 programs at 3 schools!  One of my recommenders is leaving for Europe on June 26 so I was sure to start early so he wouldn't be doing it last minute, and I figured I might as well just do them while I have them open.  I have a few more essays to write, a couple personal statements, an essay I need to hack in half, but I think I'm getting somewhere here.

I gave my personal expression essay to a friend to look over and I am apprehensive that my point isn't coming across.  I wrote it like a short story, sort of a series of little tiny vignettes, to try and show who I am and what I am about, but I made it very informal because that's much more personal to me.  Writing in a super formal style just wouldn't feel like "personal expression".  My friend kind of missed the point, so I am nervous that to people who don't know me these little vignettes don't come together to give the right message.

Maybe I should just make a damn video.

Today after work I am going down to the shore for a girl's night but not staying the whole weekend as that was a struggle last time.  I want some time in my house to work on my essays and such, and I think it will be good to have a little more alone time this weekend too.

My flame retardant jumpsuit came and it smells like a can of tuna.  No joke.  I'll post pics when I'm done washing it and don't want to gag at the smell.

It was super bright this morning.

dress: alice and olivia employed || bag: fendi colorblock chameleon || necklace: kate spade

jacket: theory linen open blazer || shoes: saks fifth ave black label randi flats

I took this picture of the giant poster in our office demo room.  Check out that guy's tie!! And the computer screen.  Yeesh.

I think it's time for a new poster, huh.  We're a technology company, after all.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

First Draft

So I completed the first draft of my personal expression essay for NYU.  I just sat down and wrote it and it ended up like a kind of short story thing.  I like it.

Word count: 1,030

NYU's word limit: 500


Come on, 500 words is really short, especially for someone as long winded as I am.  That's like a single page single spaced, and how can I really say anything about myself in so few words?  It takes me 500 words just to get warmed up.

dress: diane von furstenberg kimmie sheath || bag: balenciaga black RH city || shoes: bcbgeneration tinas pumps

I gotta get to work on my tan, seriously.  Hopefully it won't be as cold this weekend as it was last time!

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Believe it or Not, Engineering is Not Very Glamorous!

So far I've spent the majority of my time in an office where the only specialty clothing needed is a fleece jacket to protect against the vent right above me that pumps out frigid air year round.

On Monday, I will be heading out to the site of a catalyst company and in the email I received from them in preparation of my visit I found I will need to be wearing flame retardant clothing.  Ok cool, that can't be too bad right?  Something I own must fall in that category, maybe silk or twill?


My options include relaxed fit jeans and jumpsuits, and these aren't even the worst of them.

Finally my work is going to buy me $300 worth of clothes, and they're going to be the most absolutely hideous things I can find online. 

My coworker just sent me this one that he thinks I'd be able to pull off:

I'm thinking about it.